I can't. Why do they get so fucking mad when they're the ones who told you to just do it already? go shopping and try on new things and buy em. i used to be like that. I do not live on a Greek Island overlooking the blue Mediterranean but I live in the second biggest city of Greece, Thessaloniki. Like nothing about me or anything I did was ever even CLOSE to good enough. Draw. We all have made mistakes or someone close has hurt us at some point in our lives. But sometimes it feels like we can be better. If you don't do what you need to do, you'll never get what you want. The thing is that I don't know what else I want to do. The Law of Attraction is clear on never focusing on what we don’t want. I don't want to live Anymore. WHAT HAVE YOU GOT TO LOSE than TRY. Cyrus Ausar shares his perspective on the thoughts of not wanting to live anymore and not wanting to commit suicide. and i mean REALLY, then you can escape it. I can honestly say that everyone has suicidal thoughts when it gets rough, most people just don't talk about it. Unfortunately as you understand, committing suicide hurts those around you. Does it suck to live in Greece these days? If you go to Syntagma square it smells like tear gasses. You never know when your hobby turns into a successful business venture. you can reverse the hormones affecting your brain with your feelings. They want to get, get, get with the most minimal amount of giving. The need to stop living is stronger in some. I want to believe in something. I feel that I have lived and seen sufficient that I don't need any longer here. And thanks for the gold kind stranger, I have no idea what it does but I'll definitely make sure to find out. Lot of taxes in electricity bills, water and basic things. Staring at literally ANYTHING and feeling like you hate it, just because it's there, where you want there to be nothingness. To me, if someone genuinely feels that depressed, wanting to end it makes sense. Universities are being controlled by political parties. Expect many conversations to strike up with folks you don't know. r/AskReddit is the place to ask and answer thought-provoking questions. Man it feels like I'm on The Truman Show where people talk about NZ like it's the best place on Earth whenever we're mentioned on reddit. and if you hate it still, hit the gym and stick with it. On a Greek Island overlooking the blue blue Mediterranean. Go find them. Celebrities get elected in European Elections, National Elections and Local Elections just because they are famous. Someone, anyone, will always be there to tell you they love you. I have never experienced it before and do not wish it on my worst enemy. Sometimes, we don’t have enough money to do all of the things we want to do. I had my first anxiety attack today followed by another. Depression makes my brain go into hyper "fix it" mode (before it crashes). Huge unemployment rates. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. r/AskReddit is the place to ask and answer thought-provoking questions. Don't worry so much about the end result of satisfaction or happiness, that all comes with time, for now, it important that you give your anxiety and depression the acknowledgement it deserves, and then, you do something positive. Like mentioned below, it is dangerous. happiness doesnt appear on your lap, happiness takes effort. I just don’t know where to go and am afraid to make a … Many kids don’t have very understanding parents. I have recently been dealing with anxiety and depression due to medical reasons. It is more expensive than other countries in Latin America, but it's definitely cheaper than Europe/North America. I just wish they/society in general could be more understanding. Make a list of what you don’t want and then pivot it to what you do want. Unless you have some terrible illness possible bro . like and subscribe for nothing in returnEnjoy some skittles! Why did you pick Austin if you hate the weather there? But I have found some relief in life. If someone’s life is truly unhappy they should have the right to end it. Based on a character stillshot of Professor Farnsworth from the animated television show Futurama , the reaction image is frequently used on image boards and forums when replying to someone else's post that is deemed irritable or disagreeable (See also Are You Serious Face). No animals can kill you. Aucklander here so I'll be focusing a bit on Auckland: everything is expensive, compared to the U.S, except health care and education; house prices are crazy in Auckland and Christchurch, our largest and third largest cities respectively; we lack the scale for some cool things that larger places have, eg. Despite what everyone here is saying: “life is worth living” etc, I want to let you know what I feel. It can be found in life. youll feel rage its happening to you - WELL NO MORE! *edit: guess I was wrong they are on reddit... EVERYONES ON REDDIT! But one of these days, my parents will die and my wife will leave....and I will be free to do what I think is right. All people, yes, even you. I don't have the motivation to do anything with my life. For 21 years I had the same thoughts of feeling like it would ALWAYS get worse. I wouldn’t dump my own feelings onto the child, but I’d listen to what he said and try to be as supportive and helpful as I could. get up and fight. If you were dead, you can't console those mourning your death, particularly by suicide. I really just don’t want to be alive anymore. I love you, OP. It’s hard, though, to know what goal to set when you don’t know what you want. Around 30% on 25+ and almost 60% on 18-25. YOU are worth more than depression can have a hold of you. Whoever or whatever is making you like this. I don't have a passion for anything. It is such an American idea that we must be Happy all the time, and there is something wrong if we aren't. Do not let yourself suffer please. I hate everyone. There are a lot of people who abuse public transport services and use them without a ticket. There were days when all I could say is "Everything should be fine, but I'm depressed so I'm a failure." New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast, More posts from the TrueOffMyChest community, Press J to jump to the feed. Sorry to make this about me, but I think you should try it. I look at it like being able to wake up from a nightmare that won't stop. I will leave chronic pain, anxiety, panic, and depression forever and it will awesome. I tried to commit suicide several years ago and don't know how I didn't succeed. I hope you find your way out of this nightmare too. Suicide isn't the answer, it never will be. ___ Today I Will Be a Man. “I don’t deserve to live” sometimes means I don’t want to face that I have needs. your sad life has nothing to lose so try and make it unsad (i told myself this too). I've been depressed a lot of my life. I’m 18 years old … The people are really genuine and friendly. Waking up every morning and the first thought on your mind is ending it all. I think it's more that society realizes that you can find happiness but it takes time. Or if not, know that another stranger on the internet has felt your pain and cares about you. this is universal advice. I don’t know if you drink or not but I had the first hand experience of stopping drinking and my self harm thoughts got much more manageable. No kids, so I would not orphan anybody. It doesn't have to be a direct fix for your issues, you simply must keep going. I've been through this full forced. I can't kill myself because I don't want to burden my family. Wanna draw? You can beat these things, you can find happiness. No matter how misguided in my opinion they are. I don't want to live near people at all. if youre willing to throw away your life because of how bad it is. People cannot comprehend a life where the only emotion that you are able to experience is pain. you want to love yourself? Even once you work through your problems, you won't be happy all the time. Have you ever gotten to the root of why you feel this way? It has been a living nightmare for me and it’s progressively getting worse. But even then, happiness comes from within you, I have terrible mental disorders lol I think it’s comparable. You need to take that loathing and hate and channel it into something positive. And it was hard. You are forced to work overtimes without getting payed just to make sure your boss will not fire you. Here’s how. For tourists, I think it's very nice, everyone seems so friendly and relaxed, but you have to be careful with scammers and people behind your money. There are a lot of strangers out there that I can guarantee would be willing to listen if you cried and begged them to please hear your story. I don't know what it is. You just need to do positive things every day, because the end goal is inner peace to this turmoil. Not gonna lie, you have to watch out where you walk in San Jose. be so mad at yourself if you have to, hate yourself for being miserable, and turn that high energy and unleash it on changing yourself. In my opinion, it is a brave thought. That's why we have 700,000 civil servants in a 10,000,000 population country. We want to be a certain type of person. I told myself it was okay to be depressed. (Lookin at you Australia). Redditors who live there, why should they not want to live there? Always wanted to visit at least. I just kinda lost the drama even tho life often sucks or disappoints. Lots of Riots, every second month there are riots in Athens and Salonica. You can go hunting/fishing everywhere and not see another person for days. Devotion, responsibility, and thought. I have worked so hard to drag myself out of that dark, dark place I hope to never go back to. There is a lot of corruption in our goverment that takes bribes and steals money. I've taken up smoking cigarettes about three months ago. There are either lower middle class, poor or very rich. The minimum wage keeps getting lower and lower, it used to be 800€/mo and soon will be 550€/mo. Thank you. Anyway, I'm here if you'd like to talk. Writing or reasoning through my thoughts helped me feel less helpless being depressed. Do it. One of which consists of self-talk that starts something like “I don’t know..” This, I’ve found is a horrible focal point, one that I like to overwrite when I can. And I'm only 35. This is such a big one. We get a lot of tourists especially in summer and the people try to rip them off as much as they can asking for insane prices for something that is relatively cheap. Edit2: Should have added this before but this officially make my most upvoted and commented thread ever, keep em coming. But if you give up, you forfeit any possibility of things changing or improving. I don’t know what exactly but I know I have the biggest desire to believe in something. And trust me, talking helps SOOO much more than you know. There’s an excellent mountain climbing analogy to this. Don't get me wrong; I'd hate the weather there too, but then I'd never consider moving there. You know what you want, you just don’t want to admit it. I'm not afraid to die. Almost no part of me wants to live anymore. The number of middle class people keeps fading away. A man of principle, work, and character. I don’t think there is any solution to my problems, except to just get out there and do it. i stopped saying never. I know it probably seems like there is no good left in this world, or in people. Other than them and a few friends, no one would notice or care about my being. Because most people don’t care about a long-term vision and they only care about their own short-term vision. Do it. Edit: Holy shit, my inbox will be visiting Leonard Nimoy very soon (this is a joke, please do not take offense.) By using our Services or clicking I agree, you agree to our use of cookies. I had a suicide attempt this past May followed by months of therapy. It's Awful. Edit 2: r/newzealand may be able to help you out if you have more questions about NZ :), Free healthcare (overall a very good system), All the karma r/earthporn has to offer (it is truly a beautiful place), Pleasant summers (especially when compared to Australia), Very expensive to fly anywhere (except for Australia). 31.0m members in the AskReddit community. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. I don't want to do anything, and I'm sure as hell not going to reproduce, so I don't benefit humanity, or have a reason to live outside of that. Cut them out for good. On the third day after taking the test, as I woke up to grab my Gatorade (which was the only thing I could stomach) it hit me: I don't want a child. I have to just find a job and face it. Are we really that high up on people's list of countries to visit/live? I want people to protest things that they don’t see as right. With change comes reinvention. 111 votes, 115 comments. But happiness is like the moon, it wanes and waxes and sometimes it's just not there, and other times you are beaming with it. I Don’t Want to Live Anymore: 11 Ways to Get Unstuck 1. You have better chances finding a job as an immigrant rather than Greek, because bosses take advantage of the system and hire people for ridiculously low wages and without insurance. I’m just so tired and fed up with dealing with the stress everyday. The roads really suck, the nature is awesome, some places are very polluted, but nothing outrageous. And trust me, talking helps SOOO much more than you know. "I Don't Want to Live on this Planet Anymore" is an expression and reaction image often used to show disgust or disappointment with others. I hate people. I pretend to be happy so those that I care about don't worry. Forget Your Past Failures. However, thinking about your unfortunate past will only instigate the feeling of bitterness and sadness. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. I can say for a fact that after everything I've been through, if some stranger came to me crying right now and told me they needed someone, I would listen with the most open heart I could. If it were my grand son, I’d probably have that conversation with the parents and see if they want me to talk to their kid or not. For example, I want … but let me tell you. It’s harder, still, to identify new goals and passions when you find yourself living a life you hadn’t quite planned on. You have higher chances of getting a position because you know someone rather than getting it because you got the required skills. Factories keep closing everyday, they are being moved to neighbor Balkan countries due to low HDI and very cheap working hands. If they want to come protest us, you know what Lars, I welcome it. I know I’m depressed due to a lot of things. Sorry for the depressing rant-if you read it, thanks. your brain is deeply affected by bad hormones. I am a widow and hate where I live. You climb a mountain, and you get halfway, and you realize that your way is a dead end. Thank you for that. But there ARE still good people. I don't want the pregnancy experience. Anyway, I have rambled on enough I think. if you REALLY WANT TO ESCAPE IT. Our only hope for profit is our tourism. I’m so indecisive. Watch: How to Set a Goal When You Don’t Know What You Want. Sometimes, life is uncomfortable. Everything about you matters. Wanting to leave is not selfish nor is it cowardly. Wow, thank you for your response. The media are being controlled by political parties and try to spread propaganda about how we are recovering from our crysis. Nothing will ever feel right within myself and I will never be satisfied with my life, I never have. I don't think nursing will be a good fit for me. Wanna go on a walk in the rain? I have social anxiety. I don't know you, and I don't have to. imagine all the hatred and hurt and pain youve felt attacked you at once. I don't know what it was. If you look to the future you don’t have to worry about the present. There is no point. Cookies help us deliver our Services. By using our Services or clicking I agree, you agree to our use of cookies. im telling you its possible. It’s Saturday and I’ve been wandering around filling in time. You see that if you want to get to the top, you’ll have to get down, find another way, and climb back up from the beginning. I just don't. What do I do? Hi. Yo man. There are also many reasons people don’t have sex, even it’s something they desperately want. Example: Zagorakis (Greek Soccer Player that was the MVP of Euro 2004 final) was elected on European Elections recently because he was famous. good theme parks; country is young so we don't have much in the way of nice (read: old) architecture, we've got natural scenery up the wazoo but not so much of the man-made kind; Auckland and Wellington are our two largest cities and both are hilly as fuck, so good luck if you want to ride a bike; limited public transport (again, lack of scale hurts us here, but also bad planning in the past), especially Auckland, not sure about Wellington; no direct route to Auckland International Airport, so you'll end up driving through suburbs to get to/from the airport; thin ozone layer, so you'll sunburn easily unless you're diligent about wearing sunscreen or don't go outside for long periods, and of course more chance of skin cancer; earthquakes, except for the upper half of the north island. However, I don't just want to be a … I don’t know how old you all are. I love you, OP. 24% VAT in everything you buy, unless it is a dairy product or food. I still feel the same way and I think I’ll always feel like this. Huge tax evasion, not because we are greedy but because we don't trust our goverment anymore with our money. I am alone, I don't care if people feel the same as me, I don't like people. I’ve struggled with anxiety for many years and depression for the past year. But eventually I had a break through. I hate existing. And the answer is always “I don’t know.” Because I don’t know. Why? I don’t want to slow down or admit I need a break. When you feel like you add nothing of value to anyone else's life, including your own, the option is pondered. I hope that you find hope. I don't know you, and I don't have to. We are working on fixing some of these problems, so check back in ten years. I know some people can relate to this. when youre that indeep you see no hope and you cant fathom hope, you feel entirely stuck and trapped that you believe it and dont see any exits. And it will be okay. I agree with you. I’m trying really hard to dig myself out of it through therapy it’s just really really hard to climb out when you’re in this deep. Why shouldn't it be okay for me to kill myself when everyone has already told me to do it? If you have any questions, happy to help. More mountains than you can shake a stick at. He asks me where I want to eat, what movie I want to see, what I want for Christmas. Edit: Holy shit, my inbox will be visiting Leonard Nimoy very soon (this is a joke, please do not take offense.) dont let it take a hold of you again. If you don’t know who you are and what you want, it makes it a lot harder to move forward in your life. He can't even speak proper English, hell he can't even speak Greek. FUCK them. I can’t believe this post was almost 6 months ago. Anyway, that's not what you're asking. Using your knowledge of what you don’t want. Even if it's a stranger, a pastor, a drug dealer, a gang member, it doesn't matter. I have hopes and dreams but I'm starting to think that they won't work out, I don't have a lot of friends I have trouble making friends and I feel like nobody likes me. If you haven't figured out what's tormenting you, locate it, and eradicate it. I haven’t been taking good care of myself this week. I have been counting the days until I go away to college. Fuck happiness, just do something in the moment that you like. They don't know what it's like to no longer see life in color....to no longer taste anything. You never know when your hobby turns into a successful business venture. I hate the humanness of burnout, of being tired. It isn't fair to you, or to those who love you. If you don’t have a job that you love but are still stuck with it, look for better options or you can simply indulge in your hobbies as a happy past time. But people who live a truly fulfilling and successful life don’t … I want to travel and see things. And thanks for the gold kind stranger, I have no idea what it does but I'll definitely make sure to find out. Before I got pregnant, I would say I was 98 percent sure I didn't want … Or is it cheaper? The things you do matter. Even if, by some stretch, you prove me wrong and someone hands it all to you, you won't keep it. Sometimes, the heaviness of this feeling simply comes down to this. I’m slowly going where you are and hope you can bounce out of it. I don't even like to hold babies, much less give birth to one. Those who do not experience it have no idea. I’m trying to break through but I just get in this head space sometimes that’s hard to get out of. You are not alone in your feelings, and your life can improve if you let it. While life can throw us curveballs, the truth is most people are not willing to do the work it takes to achieve what they want. But nothing out of this world, there are secure zones and there are no curfews, like other countries in Central America. Reprinted here with permission, is a heartfelt declaration to being the best man we all know we can be. The meds my doc put me on aren’t doing a thing. I just can’t stand the guilt of what it would do to my friends and family if I killed myself. I don’t know if I want to live anymore Tw: suicidal thoughts I’ve felt suicidal in my past but always denied it, this is the first time I’ve ever contemplated it. Some days are still very hard and the anxiety & pain are always there. I know. Having a life plan and vision and knowing your purpose and how you want to live your life are the foundations to building your confidence, resilience, courage, and accountability. The truth is, most people don’t work hard. I've also in the past said exactly the same thing. Press J to jump to the feed. That's why we have political parties like Golden Dawn that wants to get rid of them. Cookies help us deliver our Services. I'm hugging you so hard in my mind right now <3. “No, I don’t want to go there.” I can’t tell you how many times I’ve had this conversation with my husband. It's okay to be unhappy, it's okay to be miserable and hate your current situation/life. I feel like chicken shit. 2. I'm very shy with no people skills. There is always discomfort but adjust to it. It's an injustice to think that you will. Watch this Vice Documentary: http://youtu.be/bO0vPGRcn9c, New Zealand. You matter. I hope that you find relief. I can say for a fact that after everything I've been through, if some stranger came to me crying right now and told me they needed someone, I would listen with the most open heart I could. I'm from Costa Rica, generally it's pretty nice, depending of where you go it's rainy or humid. 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